It’s hard to explain to your friends when your trying to cope with opsticals around you in your day to day life. It gets really hard when they are there when you come across the opsticals and are hit with overwhelming emotions and waves of internal anxiety and agony. Today was one of those days for me.. after awaking calling my pharmacy and finding out that medicaid which just approved me after I had to resign from my job because there was no work, after 3 years of working for the community health center I now turned to medicaid which I have had before right after my divorce before I qualified for ACA with the organization. Well to make a long story short the pharmacy said Medicaid has me having two other health care plans primary before them one from 2006 and another from 2013 both of these I dont have anymore and they had proof of it back in 2014 but appenently as medicaid puts it there system regenerates them anyways. So the nice man asked me from medicaid would I like him to email the State Of Alaska about this or walk in to the assistance office and wait to talk to someone because that is the only way to get anything done with them these days. He said even if they take it off the system usally will regenerate it back into the system within 2 hours and it could be a problem again. I said sure email the state and I will also go in when there not so busy on a Friday. I told him see im a person who is dependent apon daily medicine and have already waited for the medicaid process for so long my perscriptions are running so low and need to be refilled but are highly pricy and now after bringing in everything to medicaid there’s more something that will just keep regenerating in there system causing delays for me with my BIPOLAR MEDICATIONS how is this even a possibility. In all the times I have carried private insurance I have paid not only my coverage but forked out the 2000 deductible and then 5000 out of pocket yeah nice right. Well this year I hit my 2000 deductable then had to resign 7 days later my insurance was cut and I was offered Cobra for almost 900 a month when I was only making a bit over 13 an hour not even full time. This has been my life since I got sucked in to this so many many moons ago. Want to be stable well thats going to cost half your income hope you can survive well now its affecting so much more, makes me want to cry……. I mean my unemployment just started if I do find a job with benifits that will take 3 months maybe more to qualify for what a new deductable I cant afford. What on earth is going on how are people like me who the USA HEALTHCARE INDUSTRY Diagnosed Us to be supposed to be I mean really. I remember when I was 20 and my parents had to help me because literally my medical cost me more than all my living expenses, between the psychiatrist doctor therapist and medicine but thank goodness Serquil manufactures gave me my perscriptions for free because I could not afford the extra 900 a month for that too. Now I fill like I am sitting at that same door just its a little clearer then it all was before. By the way, I had to stop serqiul about 5-6 years ago due to it messing with my plututary gland and who knows what more. It’s scary to change meds though when you have kids but after that it was a must but I wonder now what the future will hold financial and health wise for me.
This was not all the hectic I went through today but you can see how hard it would be to explain to somebody even friends how frustrating and the feelings when you have to talk to pharmacist and medicaid about medications you take daily and how delays in the systems and problems in the system can cause for people like me expecially when I have been maintaining for so long with out needing the need. Why the added stress I will never know.